Helen Collins - Online Memorial Website

I remember everything you've done for me from the moment you adopted me. I love you with my soul and I ALWAYS will. The pain I feel has no name, it feels no need to stop. It comes and goes when it pleases, increasing and decreasing by the day. I drop down to my knees nightly in hopes God will help me cope with your passing. I never knew my grandparents and I never knew my dad. YOU were everything I had ever known. In essence, my life. To have the very air beneath my wings ripped away from me is not an easy injury to endure. You were making me into a strong woman, but now I have to complete the process by myself. It gets hard more often than not, with no one to turn to but a dusty picture of you. I speak to it in hopes I will find the right path. I miss your voice, your touch, even the feel of your skin. Some times I wish I could join eternity with you. Why do I have to live in such a cruel world when my only light in life has gone to claim her place with he angels?

Woah.
It's been a year and four months. I still can't believe your gone. I try my best to be happy and remember that you are in a better place. I've written so many poems. Poem after poem after poem. Each more deeper than the last, more emotional, more real.

I miss everything about you. I dont remember the way you smelll. I hold on to every bit I can to remember your voice. I've met a many people in my life that remind me of you, try to help me like you, and even try to steer me in the right direction like you. I remember the night you first adopted me (well the story at least) you said I stared at you, wondering who this stranger woman was looking at me. Little did I know this would be the very same woman that would mean so much to me. That would become the very reason I strive to do good, naw to very reason I strive for excellence.

I believe I took your death harder than most people would take the death of their mother. I know its nothing easy to endure but I can honestly say I still feel like I am an incomplete person without you. I wake up in the middle of the night with cold sweats. All I want is you. I was not ready to be on my own. To be without the proper guidence. To be without someone who I know will always love me. I lack that love and I look for it where ever I can.

When I think about you, my chest goes numb. My heart beats fast. My blood rises & my face gets wet. I know I may seem like a brat but this is how you made me. I miss you more than any words can explain. I always have dreams about the moment when the nurse woke me up and told me you had left me. I stayed up with you for days before that, even when you slept I was there. The minute I went to sleep death crept through my fingers and took you from me.  I didn't believe it was real and to this day I can still say that I heard you say something the minute after I woke up. That's when the nurse told me it was impossible because your heart had stop beating. At that moment I wished my heart would do the very same.

I'm a lost soul wondering this place called earth. I see these mothers kissing their children and I can only imagine the extent, naw the depths of the world I would go to get that very same kiss just ONE last time.

To feel your love, your touch, your skin, your kiss.
My life would be complete.
My broken heart, mended.

In closingg I would like to say I love you & miss you more than any one else. No matter how long they may have known you.

See you when I get there.

My mom was honestly the best person you could find on earth. She always did what was right. She made sure I had a good life when she adopted me. She had that kind of smile when you walk into the room you would smile automatically. When she hugged you, you could feel her love running through the very fibers of your body. She was truly an angel on earth. She gave me the best 17 years any child could ask for. Every moment i spent with her even up until the very end was well worth it. I cherish every moment with my angel. She was an amazing person. Very rarely do you find someone who is beautiful on the inside and out. Anyone who met my mom was truly lucky. She was one of gods best creations. Hands down I love you mommy & i always will. Miss you like crazy. -Brit

Jacqueline Morgan

My sister Helen Marie was like a shining light in my life, so many things I feel inside my heart today is because she cared enought to believe in me when my faith was running low.  She gave strenght,love and encouragement to and I thank her for that. Her gentle words of wisdom always helped me choose which way to go, which was to pray.   I will always love  and miss you Helen .

 

 

 

                                       

Aunt Helen was a very loving person. She was special because she always gave of herself to her family. Whether someone was sick and needed assistance, she was there. Whenever there was a major event in our lives, weddings, birthday celebrations, family gatherings, etc. she was there. She never forgot our birthdays and always sent cards and gifts to not only  me, but to my wife, kids and grand kids...I will never forget her...Thank You God for bringing her into my life